But it's great, because I learned something...nothing is owed to me. I AM NOT A SPECIAL SNOWFLAKE (until I make myself into one)!
I wrote this earlier, and I was struck how it came out. It seemed unlike me:
You are not a special snowflake. Your genes and your
environment have shaped you into a somewhat predictable machine. You
can learn to change, however, and it is in your best interest to do
so.
Since
you are pretty much the same as every other swinging dick on this
planet, you must stay ahead of the curve. You should get it into your
thick skull that you are in competition, even though it just seems
like you go to work every day, and go home and "compete" at
video games at night. The more you avert your eyes to the world, the
more things happen in the shadows. Any one of those hidden things can
be your doom.
Why
all of the soothsaying, when this is a book about confidence and
being shy? Because I will hope that this attitude will instill in you
some necessity. When you realize that your shyness is taking away
from your opportunity, and makes your life harder, you understand
that all failure is your own.
Take
for example the Santa Barbara shootings, at the beginning of 2014.
This guy was attending a prestigous school in California. His father
had a career in Hollywood, so there was plenty of money. He was
pissed off that he wasn't getting laid, and made the decision to be
the "alpha male". He knifed his 3 male roommates to death,
then set out on the streets in his BMW, and ended up shooting 3 women
to death before running from the police and eventually shooting
himself.
Although
his financial situation and education were taken care of, he was
still in direct competition with the "brutes" that were
banging all of his would-be conquests. You see, he took his situation
for
granted,
and saw no need to change himself – it must be the world that's
fucked up, so he went on his rampage. Instead of taking
responsibility for himself, and maybe going on one of the millions of
pick-up artist websites to learn how to be a "brute", he
might have been able to escape death before loss of virginity.
If
you understand that all of the time you lose by not talking to
people, forming relationships, socializing, and going out is all
your fault,
then it might kickstart you into actually getting something done
about it.
